Tough..

Life seems so tough at times.

I feel terrible when I see people I care about in pain, knowing I can't do anything about it. It makes me feel so helpless. I wish I could take their pain and hurt on but I don't know whether I'd be strong enough to do so right now. My own emotions and fear cloud my mind and I just want it all to be over. I want the fear to go away and the trials to be over.

I pray that God gives me the strength and the calm to see this episode of my life through and then to see other parts of my life play out.

I feel like my own pathetic inner strength is insufficient and I'm tired of it. Why do I put myself through it.. I question.

Watch over me, please.. watch over my family.. and all whom I care about.