Flattered

I'm flattered... but i dunno how to get out of it without being too cold..

*sigh* I don't think it will work out.. maybe i'll continue to close eyes and close ears.. then no need to think liao.. buat bodoh lah! hahaha

Thanks tho.. =D

WANT!

I want this beyond baddd!!! Unfortunately, it was like 150 pounds when it didn't have my size.. and when i looked online where it does have my size.. it's 230 pounds.. *sigh*.. I looked friggin hot in it tho ! hee hee!

sleep.. and stuff..

I'm having trouble sleeping. Probably because I've been sleeping for 12 hrs for the past 2-3 days at night just cause it's the weekend. I think I'm going to try sleeping a little less tonight.. and drink plenty of coffee tomorrow morning to keep me going.

The other issue is.. talking about people.

I regret.. to say that I've been talking about people lately.. and expressing my opinions. Probably because I've been keeping it inside because people keep having views that are one-sided. I usually don't do that often unless it is to people I trust with my own secrets. Friends who have known me from my turbulent teenage rebellious years can vouch for that. But I think because I've bottled it up.. now I'm letting it out. But I don't actually want to malign anyone's character because they can be perfectly allright people but something about their personalities just doesn't agree with me because of something they've said or something that they've done to me. I admit I can be bitter, bitchy and hold grudges. I am so not a good person. But I'm just hoping that what I've said doesn't get out to the wrong people. I am keeping my faith in some people right now because they've promised not to tell.. I hope they don't break it. But I am going to try watching what I say again. I really will try.. *sigh* I really feel regretful because this time I am guilty of talking crap about ppl. But not of telling someone else's issues.

Just a thought...

I wonder if anyone realises that.. once you make a decision.. no matter how small or large.. you inevitably are responsible for that decision you've made.

I doubt people realise that the decision doesn't have to be an official decision.. it could range from giving an opinion at a team meeting, to deciding to buy something and to deciding to say something. Everything is a decision.. and everything requires responsibility..

I feel so weighed down even tho I can barely count what my responsibilities are meaning that I've forgotten them..

I'm feeling so depressed with that reconfirmation..

It's so heavy... just living sometimes..

crush..

can crushes revive themselves? *shrugs* maybe it is.. but i don't know how to tell.. i tend to realise things concerning myself only much later after i've had time to analyse it. Oh well..

I don't see anything going anywhere.. so tra la la..

f(x) is so awesome.. amber reminds me a someone I knew in high school. But ahhaha is it possible to go all fangirly over a girl? =P scary..

back in brunei

I'm so far been in a pretty good mood.. since I got back! I get to drive.. i get to play netball.. i went to shahbandar.. i went to 2 korean restaurants. Ohh life is good for the moment.

Oh but my sport shoes are too small so.. i got my daddy to buy me new ones. yay! but it was time for a change anyway cause my old ones are dying.

I also played netball for like over 2 hours today. It was good but I can see how out of shape I am. crappers.. Anyhoo... I have a mission to clean the mess I made in my younger sis' room in which I'm staying in for the summer cause she's coming home from s'pore tonight. Whoops.. hehehe I've been procrastinating and throwing my clothes and stuff everywhere.. well mostly on her bed and on the floor. I dunno what it is about being home but.. I become instantly messy whereas in UK i'm pretty organised. Lol!

Oh yea! I had a stupid wake up call this morning.. LOL I mean I was supposed to wake up and I had switched off my alarm but the way I woke up was from the stack of pillows that was piled up next to my bed on a table thing that fell directly on my face. Someone must have not stacked it up right. Cheh.. I was half laughing in my head but also going.. wth?!

Oh well! I hope to enjoy my holiday here in FULL!!! wahahahha but also in moderation so I don't em.. hehehe * blush * gain weight again.. maintain!!!!! hopefully!

K over and out!

Packing! 4 more days!!!

I vacuumed my room already and sorted out some clothes.. god.. I can't bear to get rid of stuff.. I swear I'm a pack rat. Oh well.. I did manage to convince myself to get rid of a couple of articles of clothing.

Ooh! I also started packing stuff into my suitcase. It looks like it's going to be another heavy haul. I spoke with a couple of friends and everyone packs light. But then again I don't have much clothes in brunei that I'd actually use.. plus I have no idea where most of my clothes are since my oh so dear sister decided to get rid of all my stuff and stuff them in bits and pieces everywhere just so that she could take over my room. It's such a pain.

Anyway, I've packed and well I haven't actually got anything for krystle but... oh well don't care. I've got so much stuff to pack in, I don't know how I'm going to manage dragging it down to london and then to heathrow.

I'm still doing laundry. I suppose I'll be doing it till I leave! ugh.. Anyhoo, I'm going to metro centre with C and JJ tomorrow! Awesome-ness! Also, I'll be watching Harry Potter tomorrow =D Life is currently good!

Still can't wait to go home cause everyone is there already!

Over and out!