Lost sensations

The gym was closed.. I forgot.. that it closes early on weekends.

I feel like today that I've lost my appetite. I've only had a bowl of veggies.. and one tiny yoghurt drink. I've felt once in a while a bit of hunger.. but nothing that I can't suppress.. Even the veggies felt like I had to force myself to eat them.. It was like my tongue was numb. I couldn't taste the natural flavours of it like I usually can. I could only taste the salt that I sprinkled on it and the heat from the black pepper. Am I losing my sense of taste? All I feel like doing is staring at nothing.. and crying. The hours feel long yet short at the same time. I don't actually want to cry but I feel like that is only thing my body is capable of doing.

Am I really slipping into depression? I've always said before that I go into bouts of depression but.. this is the first time I've felt it so strongly.. and not over anything big. I'm kinda worried. Maybe I should cry.. just do one long and purging crying session instead of suppressing it.

It's the first time I've posted so much. 4th post and counting in less than 2 days. Is it normal to feel like this? I can't even fake a smile. When I talk to people I feel like plastic.. trying to stop feeling teary. What the hell is going on?

Someone...Anyone.. please help pull me out of this depression..