you..

You occupy my thoughts.. more than half the time.
You scare me sometimes with your perceptiveness.
Yet you annoy me with your denseness.
Unfortunately, I can't make you think of me.
I just hope some part of you does once in a while.

hmm

crushes.. come and go don't they? Do they reoccur?

Breathe

I finally have a bit of time to breathe..

Not going anywhere this weekend. Just chilling.. or rather i've got work I've got to get done. I'm not travelling anywhere. It feels good but I feel some what empty? Nah. I wouldn't give up this free time for anything in the world tho.

I'm having some trouble shaking M off my tail. Its not like I did anything to really encourage of it. But now that I'm aware of it.. I really have to stop it from progressing lest things get messy.

I think K is back in my head. Then again I wouldn't change what's going on right now for the world either. I'm content with the way things is. It's comfortable. I'd rather have the less drama. Or maybe cause of M, K is back. Hahaha.

Anyway, watched New Moon recently. Frankly, I enjoyed it purely for the eye candy i got from watching Jacob. Loved Dakota Fanning as well. But yes.. if no Jacob I would have said the show was crap! Mmmm... topless Jacob.. HAHAHHA imma such a perv. *shrugs* In my denfense, I'm a healthy young female who's got hormones! Hahahhaha I can appreciate a hot guy but I feel a little bit pedo cause omg wth.. he's freaking 17!

I love love love my C! Cause it's awesome when we hang out together. I think currently, having C around just makes everything more interesting! Thank God for C! hee hee! Try to take C away and they'll be hell to pay! But I hope everything stays.. normal =D and we'll end up being good friends for life!

Hm... what else to say.. other than the massive lab report that i'm soooo behind on?

Enjoyed You're Beautiful, music, series watching.. drama watching.. etc etc.. and hot guys! hee hee!

I feel like my train of thought it seriously.. incoherent.. but anyways that's it! Cheers!

Flattered

I'm flattered... but i dunno how to get out of it without being too cold..

*sigh* I don't think it will work out.. maybe i'll continue to close eyes and close ears.. then no need to think liao.. buat bodoh lah! hahaha

Thanks tho.. =D

WANT!

I want this beyond baddd!!! Unfortunately, it was like 150 pounds when it didn't have my size.. and when i looked online where it does have my size.. it's 230 pounds.. *sigh*.. I looked friggin hot in it tho ! hee hee!

sleep.. and stuff..

I'm having trouble sleeping. Probably because I've been sleeping for 12 hrs for the past 2-3 days at night just cause it's the weekend. I think I'm going to try sleeping a little less tonight.. and drink plenty of coffee tomorrow morning to keep me going.

The other issue is.. talking about people.

I regret.. to say that I've been talking about people lately.. and expressing my opinions. Probably because I've been keeping it inside because people keep having views that are one-sided. I usually don't do that often unless it is to people I trust with my own secrets. Friends who have known me from my turbulent teenage rebellious years can vouch for that. But I think because I've bottled it up.. now I'm letting it out. But I don't actually want to malign anyone's character because they can be perfectly allright people but something about their personalities just doesn't agree with me because of something they've said or something that they've done to me. I admit I can be bitter, bitchy and hold grudges. I am so not a good person. But I'm just hoping that what I've said doesn't get out to the wrong people. I am keeping my faith in some people right now because they've promised not to tell.. I hope they don't break it. But I am going to try watching what I say again. I really will try.. *sigh* I really feel regretful because this time I am guilty of talking crap about ppl. But not of telling someone else's issues.

Just a thought...

I wonder if anyone realises that.. once you make a decision.. no matter how small or large.. you inevitably are responsible for that decision you've made.

I doubt people realise that the decision doesn't have to be an official decision.. it could range from giving an opinion at a team meeting, to deciding to buy something and to deciding to say something. Everything is a decision.. and everything requires responsibility..

I feel so weighed down even tho I can barely count what my responsibilities are meaning that I've forgotten them..

I'm feeling so depressed with that reconfirmation..

It's so heavy... just living sometimes..